vanilla-flavored feathers

ever get the feeling the whole world is watching you and snickering?

::sigh::

i have soooo much to do before aod, it's absolutely crazy. and we *still* don't have any fabric, or a sewing machine, it's getting down to the wire and i'm getting so worried. plus, my 18 units really *feels* like 18 units this semester. my classes are *hard*, and it's only been two weeks.

and my poor genevieve lies dusty and lonely behind my bed...::cry::

i want to be done with stuff so i can start being excited about the fact that in just about a month i will be seeing the greatest band from any country ever perform, **live**.

...or at least that we're going to see modest mouse on wednesday. or just that i have a freaking awesome japanese culture class on wednesday nights. or something. as it stands, i'm just too stressed out to feel very excited about anything. i feel so...gray. and when i don't feel "gray" i feel anxious.

::sigh:: at least i've been getting more exercise lately. hopefully pretty soon i'll have more energy and things won't feel quite so overwhelming. anyway, i just felt like i should update, or something, so there you go. i cross-posted this to myspace, too. how boring of me. just wanted to remind my friends in northern california that i'm alive, since that's about the only way i ever hear from them...::pout::

i'm probably just burnt out from going back to school. what a self-pityingly stupid blog entry. oh well, i'm not going to delete it because i need to post *something* 'cause otherwise...uhm...well, i guess there's no "otherwise" but i feel i ought to post something, anyway.

yeah. sorry about all this.

rokketto...bai-biii<3

I'm being horribly irresponsible again...so to anyone and everyone I should have e-mailed long ago, I'm sorry...not like anyone ever reads these silly posts anyway, but just in case. I'm sorry! T_T;;; I know it's no excuse but I have no internet on my computer, and I can't always use my mother's^^;;;
( argh, so homesick... )

There are so many things I ought to be doing right now. Thing is, I'm at my mother's house and that makes it kind of tough because things are set up the way I need them to be (i.e. the computer with my FTP program on it has no internet yet, etc.). In other words, if you're waiting for me to do something and I haven't yet...I'm really sorry^^;;;
( ...like updating? )

Right now I'm wearing glasses and contacts at the same time! I am a dork. But not a cool dork like Ryoki. Ryoki Tachibana is aDORKable (I stole that word from Ashley) but hard to draw. Although just about everything is hard to draw for me=P

Yura-sama is still my absolute hero, and also the only reason I haven't butched my hair and dyed it orange. The ONLY reason. See how much I idolize you, Yura-sama?

Anyway, I just wanted to update because I've been dead to the world for weeks now. End of the semester, flying home and all. Crazy stuff.
( But wait...there's more! ...Kinda... )

It's been a pretty long weekend, but nice. I'm sick again but I have medicine that kind of helps, and a heck of a lot of homework but I'm not going to worry about it right now.

I can't believe it's only eight. It feels a lot later.

Four days now until step one. Or should it be Step One? All cool and capitalized.

Oh, and the subject line is from a weird Naruto gag comic I'm writing^^;;;
( And I guess I'll babble a bit... )

Being sick sucks. Just when I get over whatever else I was sick with, I get something new...no fair...

Oh. And happy Thanksgiving, everybody^^
( And I'm updating! What's going on?! )

I have a plan.

I know that it is a stupid plan but I want to do it anyway.
( Why? )

TT_TT I'm in shock.

::curls into a ball and cries::

I cannot believe the American people were stupid enough to "re-"elect Bush.

-----------------------hatred---

...One more year and I'm studying abroad and never, never coming back. Gawd, this totally ruined my whole day.

Rokketto bai-biii...

Wow, I just don't update anymore. Sadness.
( Like anybody reads my silly LJ anyway... )

Psycho le Cemu's new single comes out this Wednesday...everybody dance! ^_^ Although, as usual, YesAsia probably won't send it to me until after everybody else gets it off Bittorrent^_~ Oh well.

My roommate bought me two months of paid account today X_x;;; I feel bad because she's always doing nice things for me and I can never think of anything...-_-;;;...but anyway...now I can have a neato Yura-sama background ::melt::...even if it's kinda slapped together...sorry^^;;;

I did a lot of "housework" today. I even cleaned my desk. (I wasn't going to, but...nothing makes you realize how messy your desk is like the idea of having to draw all that mess O_o;;; Darn art class.)
( I don't want to move it but I don't want to draw it either... )

Wow. I just never update anymore, do I? X_x Can I blame school?

My US tour DVD (finally) came yesterday^_____^ So I've been all retrospective and dreamy...and...Psycho le Cemu is the greatest band ever. EVER.

Oh - and don't read the lj-cut if you don't want US DVD spoilers...
( Lychee boba^^ Yum! )

Today sucked.

Modest Mouse rocks (but not as much as Psycho le Cemu, still the GREATEST BAND EVER) and so does Shazna, at least from what I've seen of them.

And today. Sucked.
( Did I mention today SUCKED? )

Just wanted to at least put up a post for seek and Miyavi^^

I hope I don't end up kicking myself for doing this (I have a ton of due-in-the-near-future-homework...O_o;;;), but I'm going to bed now. After all, it's seek's birthday, and if ever there was a day for sleep, it's today. ^^

Good night!

Rocketto...bai-biii<3

Yay! ^_^The wonderful, amazing Yura-sama turns 25 today^^ (well, technically yesterday, kinda, since Japan is 16 hours ahead but...oh well.)

We walked around handing out cake to random strangers! Yay! There's a pic in the lj-cut. It was actually seek's cake too (since it's technically the day between their birthdays in Japan...and stuff)...but in the picture it's a little hard to see his name...
( So, what did YOU do for Yura-sama's birthday? )

Curse those misleading Foster's ads.

I'm thinking of organizing a (very) last-minute PLC fan get-together for this Saturday. Where? When? How? [edit: I completely lost track of the days and forgot that Saturday was Sept. 11...argh...^^;;; I feel stupid...)

...How should I know? I'll figure it out tomorrow.
( ...and theeeeeeeen...? )

I MISS MY KELLY!!!! And my Ashley, and my Emily, and my Richard...and my Jill and my Sara...and all my buddies...::sniffle::

...I should probably be pretty brief because it's late and I have to get up super early tomorrow, but...just wanted to update...you know...in case anybody wanted me to. And also just because, I guess...
( Marshmallow Toshibunnies? )

Yay! I haven't updated in forever. I guess I shouldn't say 'yay' but it's been such a long weekend that EVERYTHING is yay 'cause I'm exhausted! So! Metarrika, animal guides, music and kiosks and everything in-between! Hurrah!
( 'These are the legs in circles run...' )

It's late and I have class at eight tomorrow on the far, far away campus, and so I should not be blogging but darn it, I NEED TO RANT.

Because today SUCKED. But didn't, but did. But anyway, I'm so, so tired...
( Continue to Keshi's pity party? )

So, here I am moving in...

^^;;; Parkside Commons is so very far away from everything...and all my classes are in the part of campus farthest away...better not forget anything!
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